Entry #1: Discovery

Prompt #1: “If I could sit with my 20-year-old self…”

Crazily enough, 2020 was a defining year of growth and exploration into new pursuits. Although I’m not grateful for the pandemic, I’m thankful for this period of time where it felt like time slowed down, and I could authentically be myself without guilt. As an introvert, it gets tiring explaining to people that you don’t want to go out for any other reason than not wanting to, or desiring time to be alone and perhaps do nothing.

Since going out wasn’t really an option, I didn’t have to reject invitations. With what felt like more time, I’m thankful for exploring and trying new recipes that have built my confidence in the kitchen.

Looking back at the photos, I’m proud of my 20-year-old self for baking cookies and donuts, and 

Whipping up soups, stews, and my favorite—chicken pot pie—was all new but certainly brought me joy. Sure, I made mistakes, but that also helped me grow and learn what to do or not do. Creating dishes and having people enjoy them wasn’t something I knew I enjoyed before then.

And there were the long walks, the elliptical machine sessions, and the strengthening. Who knew the powerful feeling one gets from lifting weights? Strength training was also something I learned that I enjoy, and I’m proud of myself for the 15 pounds I lost and the routine I made to eat smarter and move more in ways I hadn’t before. 

Then, I didn’t understand how time could speed up as quickly as it had slowed down.

I’m grateful for the time I spent discovering newfound, small but profound joys that continue to this day. 

Note: Lessons from My 20s is A reflective series by Black Bonnet Girls. Lessons from My 20s is a journal-style series capturing the unfiltered truths, tender moments, and tiny awakenings that come with growing up and growing into yourself.  These entries are for anyone who’s ever felt stuck between who they’ve been and who they’re becoming. For the overthinkers, the late bloomers, the quiet dreamers, and the loud feelers. Through storytelling, reflection, and honesty, I hope this space becomes a soft landing—for me and for you.